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Holy awkward, Batman!

Today was really uncomfortable.

I met the person I was referring to in my previous post today at the gym. As much as I tried to be civil, it still made me feel uncomfortable being around M. I just stayed at the other side of the pool, so to speak. To make things more uncomfortable, we had lunch together, with some other friends, of course.

I am not used to being like this. To me, if ever I get angry, pissed or irritated with something, it doesn't usually last long. I'll have an outburst (non-violent variety), a moment away or just time to think & recollect and it's over. I'm over it na.

As much as I want to start conversing with M immediately, I think M needs to be ready to open up first. When that'll be, I don't know. Only M can tell.

I sure hope it'll be sooner than later.

Cutting people out

I have a question. Well, more of a pondering, really.

Is it really hard to separate the personal from the professional?

I had an unfortunate encounter at work - I had to tell somebody off. It wasn't really supposed to be a big deal. I mean, for me, this person is really ok, and I thought we had a close enough relationship even outside of work. I don't remember shouting. I do remember telling this person again and again what the right thing to do was. I may have overreacted. I think I overreacted. But I said I was sorry. And I really meant my apology.

I know I don't have a say when people decide to cut me out their life...
I truly hope I don't get the boot.

Argh! Ayaw ko na dito! (I don't like it here anymore!)

Sana this person will take back what he/she said. It really really hurt.

=(

There's no rushing forgiveness

A careless remark of mine hurt a close friend recently. I can really be that tactless sometimes.

Now I'm sorry, and I'm hoping that remark wouldn't affect our friendship.

But I guess time is really everybody's healer. All I can do right now is wait and still be sorry.


Still sorry...